What is one’s destiny? To live, to die? Why do we as humanity try so hard to be what we are not? We sell ourselves short every day for the approval of man. Is not the price He paid enough incentive to make us want to be just as he planned us to be? Are we not His creation? As I sit here and self-reflect on my life gone past, I am so grieved. I have made so many decision out of fear, out of anger, out of the lust of my flesh, out of uncertainty. I have hurt so many, through words and actions. If only I could take back all the wrongs I have done in this life time and just be brave enough to love without fear and throw caution to the wind, what a great and mighty vessel of God I could have been for His honor and Glory. So, that leaves me at a cross roads….do I sit idle and grieve over the past, what could have been, or do I square my shoulders lift my head high, knowing who I am in Him. Prepare for my future living the rest of my life devoted to living as God intended, fearless, without relent, with reckless abandon, strong, unwavering, doing His will and purpose…. Well, I don’t know about the rest of you but I chose the latter. I will no longer live my life with what others think in mind, but only what the eternal things are speaking through Him who speaks all things. So, let the journey begin.
As a side note, I would like to pay tribute to my amazing Husband, Robby Cummings, Truly you are a gift from God! You have taught me so many lessons, how to love, how to forgive, and how to not be afraid to be me. I am eternally grateful God gave me you, to help me heal and walk out this journey we call life! Love Love Baby!