The Struggle is Real!
How many people can relate to this image of my lamp by my bedside. It is duct taped and hanging on by a thread. Yet, we still hold on to it for dear life as if we will never have the opportunity to purchase another lamp again. Well, this is the story of my life. Why do we so often hold on to the things God so desperately wants us to let go of? Robby and I have so many times tried and tried again to achieve greatness through our own power and our own understanding, falling short every time. It has cost us big time in every area of our lives. And, like this broken lamp we were and still are at times holding on by a thread praying that we get it right. We have been through so many trials and so many tribulations, most of which could have been avoided if we would have only humbled ourselves and been obedient. Even now on our current journey we are facing some trails finically we were not prepared for, BUT GOD! Oh, his grace is sufficient! So, I am going to take the advice of my new found pastor, Pastor Jamie Tuttle, and I am not going to place a magnifying glass on all the woes and wrongs in my life. I am going to take this opportunity to place a magnifying glass on all that God has done for Robby and I as of late. Oh, God is so GOOD!
Robby and I have been married for 20 years. We have 4 beautiful children, Brianna 20, Ethan 16, Malaki 14 and Isaiah 9. We have lived in Ruffin, SC for nearly all of the 20 years on a 100+ areas of family land. Robby has pursued a life of ministry from a very young age, holding nothing back and going after God with all that he is. I have always been little more focused on my children in my early years and on being a nurse in more recent years. It has given me the opportunity to help support Robby in the ministry. He has traveled with his band Beyond the Veil for the last several years all over the place. About 4 to 5 years ago Robby and I heard the Call of the Father to Move to TN. We had confirmation after confirmation through people we never even met. We knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that was what we were suppose to do. Now, how many of you out there know you have heard the voice of the Father but did not obey? Yep, That is what we did, fearful and afraid we stayed right where we were at safe and sound and finally stable. It was ok at first, BUT THEN GOD! Slowly and surly God began to lift his hands off of us until we were lost and afraid even in our safe place. Robby bought a boat and all but quit the ministry he strived so hard for. About two months ago Robby came to me very upset and he said Lindsy I think we missed God, His anointing has left and I don't feel him anymore. I think about TN everyday but I don't know what to do. We might have missed our chance. Well, what Robby didn't know was that a even bigger blow was coming. I had been looking for a house and was going to leave. I had been unhappy for so long and felt like we would never be able to recover from our disobedience. BUT THEN GOD! Everything changed in an instant as Robby and I confessed to one another our short comings and faults, our disobedience, our lack of understanding one another and giving up so easily out of fear. We made a promise right then and there that we were going to give our marriage 110% and that we were going to obey God at any cost. Let me tell you when your life is falling apart and you are so desperate for God and his will in your life fear vanishes! The only fear we felt at that point was the Fear of God! At this point we new what if felt like to be without Him and His anointing. And, even now it is still so fresh, we would rather be poor and even face death then to be disobedient and outside the will of the Father! Let me just tell you, from the moment we said yes God, the doors have swung open. We spent time with God separately and together. God began to heal all the brokenness our disobedience had caused. God gave us a strategy through Betty Lungquest on how to move forward and she revealed that God was going to open one door at a time and as we walked through them the next would open. First was location location locations. God told us separately that we were to relocate to Cleveland TN. Neither of us went into this even knowing that area. God said Cleveland and we said yes. Then, We took our children to the mountains to break it to them that the only home they knew was going to be no more. We were prepared for the battle. But, THEN GOD! All kids were on board! Miracle you say, no not a miracle, all God! Then, when I woke up the next morning following telling the children I heard God plan as day to apply to the HCA facility in Chattanooga TN. He was specific with which Job he wanted me to take and where to apply. So I did just that, within an hour I had a call back and my first interview. So, we went from NC to Cleveland to scout out a place to live. We found exactly what we were looking for all by God, it was an unlisted house and the owner just happened to be there as we drove by. He agreed to a month to month lease and all my animals were welcome. By the end of the week, I had a new job, a house and all my kids enrolled into there new school. We went home and packed and moved to Cleveland within 2 weeks from the time we said Yes to the Lord.
Since our arrival here God has been on the move! Doors have open and relationships have been being established. If I could send out one message to the world today it would be: OBEDIENCE IS BETTER THEN ANYTHING!!!! God, is so good all the time. He just needs us to be willing participants in this journey with him. Since Robby and I have said yes, we can feel Him again. His presence is all around us even in the mist of some of the struggle that comes with being in a new place and trying to get everyone where they need to be God is there. I have struggled with PTSD and Anxiety for years. I have been medicated and have been through countless hours of therapy. I just want to testify that since I have said yes to God and Started walking in His truth and His path that he has set before me i have been anxiety free. I was telling my husband just the other day, the anxiety is gone and I have lived with it for so long I am not even sure how to act. I love it, its like this heavy load of the past is gone. So, if there is anything that can be learned from Robby and I’s struggle please let it be that we learn to say Yes to God no matter how scary it may seem, no matter how much you think you have to give up. Just SAY YES GOD!!!
We Love You All So Much!
Robby and Lindsy Cummings